Happy New Year...Three reasons !!

Another year has past and a fresh new one marks all of the hopes and ambitions we have in mind. I am not a believer in resolutions that must be set for a new year. I try to keep on my toes and add them all year through but goals, oh yes I have a few. Just to give myself some direction and to challenge myself to be the most of who I am able to be.
What comes to mind..... motherhood, my boys, my sweet family.
I am determined to work very hard at allotting fairness and appropriate attention to each of my boys. I love them each for who they all are but I wonder if I am really giving all I can to each of them all of the time.
When a baby comes into a home it can kind of take over for awhile... we all know how this happens. The boys are really quite understanding of this too. Colin simply needs more of me than Josh or Aidan do. They however do have needs in other areas. A child does not stop needing his Mom just because he can dress himself and make his own breakfast. I do not want anyone of them to ever feel on the short end of the stick. I hope they all feel my love for them.
Josh, Aidan and I were able to get out to a Bulldogs game the other night. Mike opted to stay home with Colin so we could have a night out without a baby. It was great to be able to give them time where I was not interrupted by a bundle of little baby energy. We had a blast! We got to talk about the things that they think about and for awhile be just about THEM. They deserve this. We all do.
I had the week to get out to Josh's hockey tournament and we got to spend time as just us. Aidan wanted to stay home with his Dad (and his Game Cube). It is hard to bring Colin to the rinks. This seldom happens. He is the one I want to reach out to the most. This is also a time when he is stretching out his independence. We need to find the middle road.
I love how I can really have a mature conversation with Josh these days. Whether it be for fun or about more serious things. I appreciate what he thinks and feels, I feel closer to him in a different way. He is my challenge, most of my lessons come through him. He is reflection. Josh is stepping into his ideals and beliefs and developing who he will be in his adulthood. I want to know this kid, he amazes me. Josh is like me in many ways and at the same time he is not like me at all.
I truly enjoy Aidan's pure heart and zest for life. He always knows how to take care of me and my heart. He is joy. We get to play together and laugh at boyish things. He thinks simplistically and is just easy to be around. He lives for today and shares out loud what he is feeling. No shame in this, he wears his heart on his sleeve. I admire this about him and hope he keeps this as he grows. Aidan attracts attention by being loveable, it is his nature and his sincerity gives me strength.
Colin, is a small wonder to me. He shows me how much I have changed. He is new and I think he will continue to show me his uniqueness as he grows. He came into my life with planning and has given me the opportunity to really share parenthood with Mike. I feel excited to be around Colin. He is full of life full of dance and song. He is still a mystery and a child who seems to live by his own terms. He gives to this family by being here, he is loved by all.
I do want to accomplish so much more but this is what came from my heart today. It always goes back to the boys for me!! I love being a mother. My life is rich for having these children choose me. I will celebrate my relationships with the three of them and honour them starting today.
Happy New Year.