To know the road ahead, ask those coming back. ~Chinese Proverb
I was able to relax once I talked it out for a few minutes with my all knowing Mom. She had five of us, some of us had more attitude than others. I will admit I was a handful of trouble in my time. Is this my dose of Karma? Josh is apparently stepping into my old shoes these days!
It does not matter what he said, it is the way he said it with utter disrespect and a smug certainty in his position. He is 13 and believe me, he thinks he has the world all figured out. It is usually on my side... against him.
I am so grateful this side of him comes so occasionally... please let me remember how much I love him... please let me know that some day I as enemy #1, will return to his good graces. The sweet boy who never said boo is officially a teenager in all its angst and misery. Life is now in "always" and "never" terms. Things are a little more tense than they used to be. Nobody understands him and he has to do everything around here.
The rest of the family sits by and just watches our conversation heat up.... no one says a thing (partially shock I am sure). I am left to deal with this mouthy, stubborn, obstinate child on my own. He triggers the mouthy, stubborn, obstinate child in me and then all gloves are off, metaphorically speaking of course! I would never hit him which is a good thing because Josh has also let me know that I could get arrested for beating him, don't you know... Man... this child has led such a life that he has no idea what it is even like to be hit let alone beaten!! rrrrrrgh.
I could not believe my eyes, my ears and was trying so hard not to react! I get a few breaths in and refocus for a few minutes. The phone rings, ahhh, my Mom... I can picture her nodding her head, in remembrance, and calmly lets me know that next year it gets worse. Great! Then she offers to take Josh overnight. We can both get some space and some perspective. He really seems to respect her more than me, maybe she can say a little something to help him see I am not so terrible.
This is a new road for me. I must send my Mom a formal apology for ever being a teenager!
1 comment:
Now what possibly could Joshaba do wrong?!? Oh LOL, I can believe it because even the most adored and loved kids in this world can be bull-headed, stubborn, ungrateful creatures! Keep breathing... and it was good you got a call from Mom. She always had a gift for putting you at ease and putting it all into perspective for you. I applaud you for writing this very honest account of the trials and tribulations of motherhood. It's all part of the journey and you need to reach out when you can! Love you, Beav
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