I am in the last month stretch now. I am back to work in 4 more weeks. I have noticed my sleep patterns slowly making a shift back to the norm. I am feeling woozy snoozy at about 11 o'clock and awaking right at 7am, a whole hour before my alarm goes off in the morning. I am even seeing Colin take sleep in the night hours a little more seriously.
A night owl best describes my routine of late, still up all day with Colin but some days catching a little nap in the afternoon with him. I know that around 2 o'clock in my work day I will miss those sweet naps! I often even said this at work after I returned from my last maternity leave.
I enjoy the night hours. I do not stay up as late as I would even like to, knowing that a long day follows, I eventually go to my bed. It was just a bit easier to convince myself that just another half hour of peace and quiet was okay. I understand why my mother used to enjoy the wee hours.... no kiddies, no demands on time or energy... this is the time in the day when I get to breathe a big sigh and focus on me.
That reveals the challenge ahead.... where does MY time come from? I am trying to explain this to the bigger boys in my house and for some reason they just do not get it. They are definite space invaders! While not meaning to be, they are just always there, lurking, breathing, plotting... okay, not really all that bad but you get the picture.... they take it rather personally when I say that I need to be alone.
I am starting to crisis build, and then the conscious problem solver comes in and it is all part of my process for facing change in our lives.... the return to the big and busy world!!
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Somehow Laurel, you always manage to find the right balance in our family life. You will this time too! The boys and Mike will be okay and so will you....maybe with a little less "you" time but nonetheless you will enjoy being back with your "Girls" at work and they will be blessed to have you back too! Your body and your mind are preparing yourself, now it's up to the "mommy" in you, I can't imagine that it will be easy....love you and look up to you lots and lots!! k
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